January 4th, 2007
my uterus hurts.....
Current Mood: sad
January 1st, 2007
I completely forgot what I was gonna write....I slept through New Years which is a complete first in my case I was just really really tired but oh well. I saw him yesterday!!!!! That made me so freaking happy Im still smiling. I just really cant wait for a new semester I like new things and fresh starts... Ok Im sleepy now.
Current Mood: hungry
December 25th, 2006
well here we are again... I have been feeling rather unlike myself and I would love to know why but I am very very afraid of the answer as these things usually go. I am currently sitting in my hallway with all the doors closed listening to Here's where I am over and over again as tropical storm rages on outside. I have been feeling rather different lately and there could be an answer to it but I dont really think I want it. It's like if your really sick and you think its a terminal brain tumor what do you do? Live in fear of the answer to that life changing test or actually get tested. I just guess I'm a lil scared. I need to calm my nerves lol where's JD when ya really need him?
Current Location: outer space
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: ten minutes ago-- rogers and hammersteins cinderella
December 23rd, 2006
|12:21 pm - friends are forever|
I really miss you all. I feel like a part of me is gone. When ever I am alone thinking about the past I always seem to go to high school. Many people say its one of the best times of your life and it really wasnt but I can say that my friends were amazing. I hate that we all had to grow up and move on but beacuse those times were so good. I miss being home and having some one come randomly pick me up and go hang out somewhere or spending all night in the park or even just hanging out in the auditorium. I dont want those to be just memories. It has been such a long time and we all are leading very different lives now but it would be nice to go back for just a small while. I'm not trying to be unrealistic beacuase I know some of us are no longer friends and some of us would like to leave those times behind but it would be very nice to go back to a time where we had our closest friends right around us. I dont want a fake sort of "lets catch up" thing if we dont all want to. I know high school (for many many reasons) was not the best time for any of us but I would like to thing that you all valued our friendships as much as I do. Seeing as how this is over a year a half since I graduated and over two and half years since some of you graduated I know I'm not the best at keeping in touch but I do believe it is never too late. I just really really dont want some other horrible thing to bring us all together again. It all too many times seems to be that way. So if you all want to get together some time (while I'm still in town ) let me know.
Current Location: living room
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: sound of music soundtrack
June 15th, 2005
I'm sorry to imform you I have not fallen off the face of the earth, I have just been in...hibernation. so.. Whats new with me... I just started my first job at universal studios I am going to attending FAMU in the fall i am single ...again and thats pretty much it. It has been a really long time since I have been on lj is feels so different.
I think it is kinda sad that I have been out of school for only a month yet I have already lost touch with most of my high school friends. I am almost afraid of who I will have left at the end of the summer. At least I know I will always have lj to at least pretend to stay intouch with people and likewise.
In other news I wish boys would just die or leave me alone whatever works.
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: too bad soca mind~elephant man
January 24th, 2005
today was kinda evil:
it was cold
i missed first period
i got my first 100 in chem (ok thats not actully bad but whatever)
i had to go to math (that in and of itself is pure torture)
i forgot to do my chapter for english
dj is in my class i go from hell to hades
govt was well govt
night school sucks
P.S not that you *** dont already know I am not longer in drama
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: blah blah blah blah blah blah
January 23rd, 2005
|03:14 pm - i heart the 80's!!|
ookie!!!! hiya peoples!!! this weekend has been pretty odd but hey whats new!( nothing in case you were wondering)i turned down this re***y re***y hott guy and that was difficult but i needed it sex and *** that stupid shit that comes attached to it is nothing i want right now or anytime soon plus guy = stupid (no offense those of you who i know ) in other news:
I want to have an 80's night at my house on feb 18th this means come dressed in your best 80's attire and we will be watching movies such as pretty in pink the breakfast club sixteen candles dirty dancing hinding out and more if i can find them this will be a "sleepover"/party contact me if you wish to have more details im getting the word out now cause i want people!!! ( te he he he)
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: girls jus wanna have fun
January 21st, 2005
and im probbaly not goin to districts
such is the story of my pathentic life
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: that annoying ass J Lo. song
January 10th, 2005
|06:56 pm - boys suck...throw rocks at them|
Well today started off as a pretty good day (believe it or not I actuallly have those sometimes). Until I saw him (the guy who cuddled with me in my living room the second to last day before the break and who now ignores me and acts like he doesnt know me)today. As things then to go against how you want them to it is no different in this situation when I didnt want to see I did all the time when I did I didnt. So today after pretty much figuring out when, where and how many times I see him in a day I have decided to avaoid seeing him if this means randomly leaving a conversation (as I did today )to walk away quickly then that is just what has to be done. Honestly I dont know why I am so hung up on this guy. I dont even think that it has to do with me liking him but I think it has more to do with his extreme hot/cold behavior towards me. I quess I want to find out why he is acting this way towards me. But that presents a problem..acutally talking to him which is sometime else I have told myself I am not goin to do. So I have another problem I could ask his friend (our mutal friend) but then he would be all "guy" about me asking about him. He would be al "do you like him?" and all that kind of crap that I dont want to deal with. I dont know a lot about him which is another reason for the continued interestbut all in all it annoys me I cant get him off my mind and dreams and stuff. It is pathentic and annoying and I wish I could make him go away....I wish
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: 6o's soul
January 8th, 2005
|10:39 am - with love your Natalie....|
Once again I am sitting at home alone on the weekend . I believe I have taken not having a life to an all time low. Of course once again I have put my trust in a guy and have yet again been disapointed. As if my home life isnt bad enough my school social and everything else seems to be going wrong. Why does my life seem to be so depressing? It isnt even like I have anyone I can really talk to about any of this because most if not all of them already have someone to talk to. So what do I do? I sit at home all alone watching Love Actually and Ever After wishing I could have something like that. Having a boyfriend (eventhough it isnt needed) is a VERY nice feeling most of the time but its not like I really want a boyfriend persay I just want someone I can cuddle with. We as human beings need human contact and yeah I have friends I can talk to and hug but its not the same at all. When you are with someone you feel special and important but its diferent then the kind you get from family and friends and such. I am not about to go looking for someone because whenever I look I end up horribly disapointed. Well thats just the story of my life.
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: all I want for Christmas